And I Awoke and Found Me Here on the Cold Hill's Side

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"And I Awoke and Found Me Here on the Cold Hill's Side"
Short story by James Tiptree, Jr.
Alien Sex 1990.jpg
1990 reprint anthology including this story
CountryUnited States
LanguageEnglish
Genre(s)Science fiction
Publication
Published in The Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction
Publication typeMagazine
Publication dateMarch 1972

"And I Awoke and Found Me Here on the Cold Hill's Side" is a science fiction short story by American author James Tiptree, Jr. Originally published in The Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction , the short story has been republished in several anthologies.

Contents

Its title is a quote from John Keats' 1819 poem La Belle Dame Sans Merci . [1]

Plot

In the far future humanity has begun to interact with aliens from all over the galaxy. A journalist has arrived on a space station in hopes of photographing an alien ship. He encounters a station engineer who tells him about his past and issues him a warning.

When the engineer was a young pre-med student he became obsessed with aliens despite watching similar obsessions result in death or permanent physical and mental harm. The engineer sacrificed a promising medical career in order to obtain an unfulfilling one that would allow him to go into space. He has also spent more money than he should wooing generally uninterested aliens.

He warns the journalist that aliens do not interact with other alien species and do not seek out humans either. The humans instead come to them, driven by their obsession and willing to act as menial servants for even aliens deemed failures by their own species. The aliens rarely take humans as sexual partners and never as romantic ones. The engineer theorizes that this obsession, which he views as uncontrollable due to humanity's sex drive, has dramatically reduced the birth rate. He also implies that aliens hold humanity in low regard due to their continued destruction of Earth.

The engineer's wife arrives, heavily scarred and fatigued from interactions with the aliens. He reveals that theirs is a loveless marriage of convenience, as the station exclusively hires married couples. The agreement allows them to pursue aliens, even as both seem aware of the negative repercussions. The engineer begs the journalist to return to Earth and warn others to stay away from aliens. The story ends with the infatuated journalist choosing instead to pursue his first interaction with aliens.

Publications

"And I Awoke and Found Me Here on the Cold Hill's Side" was originally published in The Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction 's March 1972 edition. [2] Since then it has been reprinted in numerous anthologies over the years: [3]

An audiobook adaptation of the story was released in 2020 as part of the anthology Her Smoke Rose Up Forever, which was narrated by Dina Pearlman and Adam Grupper. [4]

Themes

Themes in the story include xenophobia [5] and human sexual desire and its destructive side. [6] [7] [8] Graham Sleight has stated that "The story told by one of the humans argues that we will always be profoundly needy because of our desire to explore and discover the new, and that our neediness will be expressed through our sexual desires." [9]

Reception

Sleight reviewed the story as part of Her Smoke Rose Up Forever for Locus Online, noting that it is "a brilliant inversion of the SF staples about humanity winning out because of being the grittiest/toughest/smartest species on the block." [9]

Awards

Artist Brittany Nelson has created a series of prints entitled "And I Awoke Found Me Here On The Cold Hill’s Side #1-6", each of which feature a page of Tiptree's story [10]

Further reading

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