You Are Not I (short story)

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"You Are Not I"
by Paul Bowles
CountryUnited States
LanguageEnglish
Published in The Delicate Prey and Other Stories
Publication date1950

You Are Not I is a short story by Paul Bowles written in 1948 and first published the collection of his short fiction The Delicate Prey and Other Stories (1950) by Random House. [1]

Contents

The story is one Bowles's tale of "transference", in which the madwoman who narrates the story believes she has occupied the body and mind of her sane sister. [2] [3]

Plot

"You Are Not I" is told in the first-person, by a narrator identified as Ethel.

The story opens minutes after a catastrophic train derailment. The disaster has occurred within sight of a mental institute. In the confusion, Ethel, an inmate of the asylum, walks off the gated property without being detected by the staff. She wanders about the wreckage, observing the dead and injured passengers thrown from the carriages, but with utter detachment. A number of corpses have been assembled in a row. Ethyl collects small, smooth stones from the embankment, and compulsively inserts one into each of the mouths of the dead. When she attempts to remove jewelry from the hand of a woman buried in the wreckage, she is accosted by a train employee. Weeping, Ethyl claims that the woman is her dead sister. She is led to an assembly area for survivors. She is assumed to be suffering from shock after an examination at the local hospital.

She tells the authorities the address of her sister who lives nearby, and is driven there. When she arrives, her sister greets her arrival with dismay. Unlike the medics, she knows that Ethyl was never on the train and suffers from severe mental illness, not shock. She objects to having Ethyl in her household. She calls the asylum and arranges to have Ethyl recommitted. Ethyl has become obsessed that she has assumed the body and mind of her "dead" sister. When she arrives at the institution, she writes the narrative that constitutes the story, believing that she now occupies her sister's home, and that she has exchanged existences with her sibling. Ethyl believes her sister is now confirmed in the mental ward and "I am still in my living room, sitting on the divan."

Publication History

In a 1974 interview with Lawrence Stewart, Bowles explained that the concept for "You Are Not I" arose from a dream. He rose in the night and sketched the outline, as well as a number of details, on a notepad in the dark. [4]

The whole atmosphere of the beginning I had dreamed. So when I woke up I began writing, without putting the light on, in the dark - long dash I could barely read it the next day. I just wrote, large, and turned the pages and kept this up, because I was saying it from memory, almost. Down as far a putting the stones in the mouths [of the deceased]..." [5]

Style

Bowles's first-person narrative, "an exploration of a neurotic human consciousness" is delivered by an inmate of a mental institution. On the similarity of this story to the works of Edgar Allan Poe, Bowles biographer Allen Hibbard writes:

In "You Are Not I" the screw is given one more turn. Here we are in the hands of an insane, schizophrenic narrator….Ethyl is telling the story (the entire story) in which she tells another story (the 'will power" reversal) in which the [sane] sister becomes the author of a story in which Ethyl is the character... The intensely subjective, deranged first-person narrative reminds one of Poe's narrators in "The Cask of Amontillado" or "The Man of the Crowd". [6]

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References

  1. Hibbard, 1993 p. 256
  2. Vidal, 1979 Introduction.
  3. Hibbard, 1993 p. 39: "Ethyl is telling a story (the entire story) in which she tells another story (the 'will power" reversal) in which the [sane] sister becomes the author of a story in which Ethyl is the character."
  4. Hibbard, 1993 p. 39-40
  5. Hibbard, 1993 p. 39-40
  6. Hibbard, 1993 p. 37-39:Composite quote for clarity, continuity.

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