@ My Worst

This article is about the Blackbear song. For other uses, see At My Worst.

"@ My Worst"
Single by Blackbear
from the album Misery Lake
Released	August 6, 2021
Genre	Pop
Length	3:11
Label	Beartrap Alamo Columbia
Songwriter(s)	Matthew Musto Andrew Goldstein
Producer(s)	Blackbear Goldstein
Blackbear singles chronology
"Memory" (2021) "@ My Worst" (2021) "Love It When You Hate Me" (2022)
Music video
"@ My Worst" on YouTube

"@ My Worst" (stylized in all lowercase) is a song by American singer Blackbear. It was released through Beartrap, Alamo, and Columbia Records on August 6, 2021 as the second single from his seventh EP Misery Lake . ^{[1] [2]}

Background and composition

"@ My Worst" was written and produced by Blackbear and Andrew Goldstein. It was previewed in an Instagram story and a TikTok video posted in the EP's lead up. The song describes Blackbear hoping for his lover to still love them even when at his worst moments.

Music video

The music video for "@ My Worst" premiered on August 6, 2021 and was directed by Brent Campanelli. ^[3] The video features Blackbear performing and wandering a house party while a woman dressed as the Devil haunts him.

Personnel

Credits for "@ My Worst" adapted from Apple Music. ^[4]

Musicians Matthew Musto – lead vocals Blake Straus – guitar Kaela – keyboards Bonnie Brooksbank – violin Emily Elkin – cello Harry Allen – drums

Production Blackbear – production, recording engineering Andrew Goldstein – production, recording engineering Alex Ghenea – mixing Dave Kutch – mastering

Charts

Chart performance for "@ My Worst"

Chart (2021)	Peak position
New Zealand Hot Singles (RMNZ) [5]	11
US Bubbling Under Hot 100 ( Billboard ) [6]	23

Certifications

Certifications for "@ My Worst"

Region	Certification	Certified units/sales
United States (RIAA) [7]	Gold	500,000‡
‡ Sales+streaming figures based on certification alone.

References

1. Carter, Josh. "blackbear releases "@ my worst" along with cinematic visual—watch". Alternative Press Magazine. Retrieved January 15, 2025.
2. Goodwin, Victoria (August 6, 2021). "blackbear releases new track and video for "@ my worst" » // MELODIC Magazine". www.melodicmag.com. Retrieved January 15, 2025.
3. blackbearVEVO (August 5, 2021). blackbear - @ my worst (Official Music Video) . Retrieved January 15, 2025– via YouTube.
4. @ my worst by blackbear on Apple Music, August 6, 2021, retrieved January 15, 2025
5. "NZ Hot Singles Chart". Recorded Music NZ. August 13, 2021. Retrieved January 21, 2025.
6. "Blackbear Chart History (Bubbling Under Hot 100)". Billboard. Retrieved January 15, 2025.
7. "American single certifications – Blackbear – @ My Worst". Recording Industry Association of America . Retrieved January 15, 2025.